Lately I have been trying.
Which essentially, means I haven’t been as productive as I’d like. I do think there’s a difference between trying and doing. There is more resolve in doing- it doesn’t mean half-heartedly sitting at a piano or writing lyrics on a napkin, it means protecting time for those things, and defending that time like nobody’s business.
Did you know this is my last semester of undergrad? It’s so strange to know that I’ve been studying Journalism for 4 years; there have been great moments, and I’m glad to have the degree. But at the same time, it’s like the things I truly love have been on hold for those 4 years as well.
In my spare time, I’ve been working part-time, mostly modelling, to save up. And this year, I’m also working on a magazine and that is taking up time.
But this isn’t to say that nothing is happening music-wise. It just means it’s harder. It just means I get home at night and all I want to do is watch some romantic TV show and read and drink tea until I sleep. Instead, I slothfully sludge over to my piano and say
“Hello, I’m still here and soon will be our time.”
The piano sighs in A minor, feeling neglected and wondering when it will feel joy again.
“Just have a little faith”
“Okay… fine.”
That is hard, to find inspiration late at night or in between classes or while doing homework.
I’ll leave you with an update for what’s next and what I’ve been working on:
1. Did a RogersTV segment last week! I was more nervous than I thought but it went okay- I’ll share the clip when it airs in the next week weeks.
2. I’m doing two weddings this Spring; for one, I’m doing covers. For the other, I’m writing a love song; that has been a huge challenge. Do I write in the first person? (ie., “I’ve always loved you”) or do I write as if I’m telling a story? (“they first met on a dark street”). It’s difficult to know what someone else would want to walk down the aisle too, especially with a lack of time. But both couples are wonderful people and I will do my best to do these projects justice.
3. I will be recording in early February! I’m still looking for the perfect space (a piano that sounds old and rustic but is perfectly in tune; a room with just the right amount of echo).
4. I have a show on February 23rd at The Silver Dollar Room! More details and poster to arrive in the coming weeks.
5.Thanks for supporting and encouraging me. May you be inspired today.
-Elissa
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