This has been a bizarre week.
I can’t give all the details, but reflecting on it, it has been full of wonderful surprises, difficult decisions and some anxieties.
- Musically, I’m doing well. I just rewrote two verses on one of my older love songs (you won’t know which one til you come to my February show). I also spent some time working through the songs for upcoming weddings I’m singing at. The love song composing is slow but is slowly happening- the biggest challenge is writing something romantic and epic enough for an aisle walk, while avoiding cliches and keeping things simple. It’s a very healthy challenge and I’m excited to see how it all comes together.
- This week has also been heavy in many ways. Someone I care very much for is quite sick and has a tired heart. This has been emotionally and spiritually draining. It’s hard to be creative when your mind is worrying and anxious thoughts are dancing around your head. I’m still reading the War of Art, and it has been very instrumental in my creative process through this confusing time.
In other news:
- I may finally get to rock out like I always secretly hoped. This week a wonderful surprise happened when the drummer from a band that I think is awesome told me they’re in need of a synth player. If this works out, it’d be a really new experience for me, but a good challenge and amazing opportunity. I’m trying to take more risks and embrace vulnerability, and this will be both of those things. The next few weeks are sort of a test run to see if it’d work out and to try things out. I’m hopeful, nervous and excited- to make some new friends, and to understand how everything comes together in rock bands. Woo! I am already practicing my hair flip. It’s good but my neck hurts now.
- I was in a music video this week. I am both excited and apprehensive about this. Due to, it may end up looking sexier than I had hoped it would. If it does end up being quite a sexy thing, I have some hesitance about how it will be received in some of my communities. Modeling and acting are full of tough calls, and there’s not usually a lot of time to decide how you feel about how you’ll be portrayed. But at the same time, it was a wonderful acting role and a good experience. Sometimes we take risks and don’t know how they’ll turn out. But at the end of the day, I got to meet a musician who I think is awesome, and learned so much about myself and my values. So I don’t regret anything yet. And all I can do is hope for grace in everything. I am so grateful for the musical and friendly support from my communities; if you ever have questions or concerns about what I’m doing musically or in other creative outlets, I’d rather you contacted me directly. Just email me and I’ll tell you where I’m coming from.
There’s your weekly recap!
Go back to your calendar right now and on February 23rd write in red pen “ELISSA AT THE SILVER DOLLAR ROOM IM SO EXCITED.” Then draw an animal there to make the caption stand out on your calendar.
See you then.
